Day 17

Day 17:

HELLO!!!! Graduation night was SO super duper amazing like omfg I cannot even explain!! 

At Graduation I got an award for Most Friendly which was seriously so surprising cause clearly I am not the most friendly  hahahaha but okay Year 13s ya weirdos :) the food at graduation was so delicious and the ceremony was cute and at the end we all let go of helium balloons then we took some photos like awesome peoples :)

Once Slice and I left, we went to the liquor store and I bought some scrumpy (new fave) and went to Larketas. At first it was a little awkward as there weren't too many people there and I wasn't really properly friends with anyone there, just friendly. But then everyone started showing up and everyone got into the party mood and everyone was drinking and singing and hanging out and having a good time and yeah soon everyone started talking about going out to town and everyone got pumped and was excited :D 

Finally at 12:40 (after 3 double black smirnoff cans and half a bottle of scrumpy), I was off to town with hte perf girlfriend and fellow drunk people! They disappeared once we pulled up but Slice and I went into The Bahama Hut, bumped into Annie and her friends then found our other Year 13s up on the balcony thingy so danced our way up there and just started enjoying ourselves! 

After two more smirnoff cans, I was feeling properly drunk, for the first time since forever and it was fab! The whole time we were there until the club closed was So much fun and the best night out yet! We all left and said goodbye to everyone and got in the car, tired but still drunk and happy.

Then afterwards we went to McDonalds (essential for every night out) and had some delicious although awfully unhealthy food, but no one eats a salad after going out. Anyway, we dropped off the gurls and by the time we got home it was past four, so we crashed on the couch and once everyone woke up we went and slept on mums bed. 

Later that day we went over to Rotorua to grab some stuff from dads and I was feeling quite crap and reaaallly tired tbh but I survived all day without a nap and still stayed up late cause I am dumb XD

Today was pretty relaxing, we woke up at 7:30 to take Kweeg to school for camp and once we got home everyone just went back to sleep till past midday cause swag XD I did some cleaning and I read heaps of SCP articles and I still want to read some more so I will do so after this. 

So yeah the past few days have been fab and I will finish this entry with a couple of photos from town and next time I write there will hopefully be some photos of graduation itself :) 

Until then!! Xxxx

Day 16

Day 16:

HELLO EVERYONE DO YOU REMEMBER MEEE?! I am incredibly sorry about my lack of posts and interaction because I am useless but in good news tomorrow I am graduating High School and moving on to the big wide world!!! 

Okay, maybe not straight away but in a few months! I am excited but more nervous than anything else and it's going to be a very big step and just eep.

Last last weekend was my cousins wedding and it was beyond adorable omg and it was so lovely seeing all my family and spending time with them ad was just an overall perf weekend, and le family loves Slice so all is well :)

I had my last exam last week and since then I have been doing nothing productive at all because I am useless :L

I am looking forward to tomorrow night so much but I hope Graduation isn't too boring and/or too long and I am excited for after drinks and maybe town afterwards and it will just be a fab night that I will probably never forget (hopefully for good reasons!) and yeah! Super exciting, growing up :-) 

Hopefully I will update more since I don't have anything better to do and I stop being lazy, but probably not, no promises.

Maybe I will be back on Friday, we will see!

Bye xox

Day 15

Day 15: 

Hello all, here I am again.

Today has been a below average day, there was minimal study as I could not get my brain to focus, but on the plus side I found some great feminist blogs to follow.

I will probably fail my exam tomorrow, and it will not be surprising, but that is honestly the least of my worries at this point in time.

I want to punch my brother in the face.

I have eaten more food that I knew I should have so now I feel disgusting and useless and gross, but mostly weak because I just cannot seem to do this how I hoped.

Sometimes, I just hate myself, y'know?

Oh great one of these posts again, I thought I had moved past this, although I guess not. I'm presuming these posts will appear now and then and I am sorry to anyone who has to read them because they're probably boring and lame.

 

I want to get really drunk and pass out. 

This dream isn't feeling sweet we're reeling though the midnight streets and i've never felt more alone, it feels so scary getting old. 

I pray that this weekend is nice and i look not so disgusting and I get to spend time  with some people I haven't seen for awhile. I also hope that I find a way home on Sunday afternoon because it is Gary and Daks birthday and I would feel so beyond awful if I missed it. 

Guilt is such a funny emotion because there's no one else you can blame for having it? Like if you're angry you can say someone pissed you off, if you're happy you can say someone made you smile, but if you're guilty thats no ones fault but your own. So you're stuck in this little fucked up bubble of sadness and guilt but there's only yourself to blame and you cannot run, you cannot hide, it is just you and your thoughts and your mistakes and you slowly realise just how complete and utter shit of a person you are in every  possible way. 

And it's all your fault. No one made you that way. You destroyed yourself. 

Until next time xx

Day 14

Day 14:

Dang I am useless! :P

So hello alll :) 

I'm very sorry for not posting the other night! I have totaaallly been really busy (Not at all lerl) but i will stick to that till i die!

For the past two days I have been working but on Friday I went shopping and bought some new clothes and togs that are all very cute :) i will put in a picture of the togs here: 

SAH CUTE!!

On Saturday morning I went into Snap Fitness to check out prices etc and I am still undecided about whether I want to go or not! I have been sticking to my calorie limit and exercise thus far and I hope I continue with that :)

I just downloaded an IQ test app and I did rather well because I am obviously fabulous ;) unfortunately I am not fabulous enough to pass school well but y'know, little things.

Speaking of, i have my first two exams on Tuesday and I am beyond stuffed because I have hardly studied at all but I dont want to fail so lots of study tomorrow!! Then it's two down,  

Two to go!! I just want it all over so I can focus on working and saving lots of money!

I am beyond excited for next weekend, its going to be so good :) wahey party, and bullshit!

Okay this is all for tonight, I will probably be back after my first exams so I can have a cry about being a failure!!

Gooby xxxxx

Day 13

Day 13:

Hello!! I have officially finished school forever wahey!! I am now on study leave although I have not been studying very hard yet but I will get onto that :) 

Monday was a day full of tears and feels and it was absolutely ridiculous. Ijust started   bawling my eyes out and it was not the one! But it was incredibly cute and a good last day!

Our Big Day Out ended up being quite nice and it wasn't too cold and no one was mean and it was very entertaining and a LOT better than school, it was just a pleasant way to remember Year 13.

Last night was prizegiving and it was quite boring but I basically wanted to die because I was given an award for being an LGBT ambassador, and the idea was cute but the embarrassment was not. I did not want every member of staff knowing about me, and even if I did, it is my choice how and when I tell them. That group is supposed to be confidential and anyone that I tell is my decision, it is not something to be announced in a crowded church full of people watching you. 

But oh well, hopefully because it was early on in the night no one remembers, I am probably just worrying because it was about me and maybe no one else even noticed. 

Thats all from me today, I will most likely be back in two days!

Ciao! Dx

Day 12

Day 12:

Hello!

I am very tired and sick so this may be very boring and poorly typed :)

So last night was the gala, and it was pretty good, the fireworks were cool but I could smell all the food so I was just crying on the inside but I didn't get anything so I think I did well :)

After the gala we went to Isaacs and watched some movies and it was a chilled night, except for the fact that I could not sleep at all and I had already been awake since five when my alarm for work went off at seven and I felt so awful and it just wasn't a good morning :( But I survived and work wasn't too ridiculous but I was wearing new shoes and they killed my feet so when I had to walk to the plaza I just swagged on out and wore my socks cause I'm clearly awesome. 

Ooh yesterday I bought a super cute dress and I love it and I'm going to wear it to my cousins wedding and omg just yes it is fabulous! 

Tomorrow is my last day of school FOREVER!! and im super nervous about failing my exams but I'm praying that I won't and that I will actually get uni entrance cause other wise that would be embarrassing hahaha. But we have to stand in a bug line and say goodbye to aaallll of the teachers and then do our year 13 dance and idk it will probably be quite cute but yeah. On Tuesday we have our Year 13 Big Day Out and I'm so hoping it will be good and people won't be mean to me cause togs and yes :S its very worrying.

Anyway, i'll worry about that more on Tuesday morning, for now I just gotta relax and make sure I don't get more sick!!

Okay, i will finish this blog post with a cool picture from the gala

Bye!! :)

Day 11

Day 11:

Hello everyone. This is just a quick post since I am crazy tired and I just want to sleep!  

Last night I went to a halloween party And got far too drunk and now I feel not so great :( But was so worth it cause it was a crazy good party and I had some good chats with people and I learnt some things I never would have guessed. I also discovered I do actually like cindys after claiming for years that they were disgusting. 

Tomorrow night is gala night and our group still has nooo idea where we are going or what we're doing Afterwards WOOPS but im sure we will work it out eventually. 

Okay I feel my death approaching so I'm going to get ready for bed then crash, I may be back tomorrow night! :)

xoxo gossip girl